Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Kicking It...

...into high gear.

So, this week is insane. And of course that occurs on a week when I'm trying to kick it into high gear (explanation to follow momentarily). I think almost every minute of my day is planned with something until maybe Saturday afternoon, or maybe Sunday. These aren't bad things whatsoever, but just busy days! And work is pretty crazy, too.

This morning I was supposed to have a client meeting at 8am, but when I arrived, I found out it was cancelled. An hour back! Yay! :) I jump for joy because so far about 9 of my at-work hours this week have been in meetings. So, for all you mathies out there, I've been in meetings the equivalent of one of my two workdays. Phew. :)

So, what does this have to do with the price of tea in China?

I've REALLY stunk it up in the healthy living world since about January. It started when I injured my back and has gone downhill since then. Not to the point of no return of course, but my eating hasn't been great nor has my gym-time (well, except for zumba :)).

I decided last week enough was enough and I should be at goal by now. After talking to a few gym friends, I discovered that it only cost an extra $7 a month to convert my Y membership to all Dallas Ys. I looked at several within different areas of Dallas I frequent and discovered that there are fun classes I can go to on days it's hard to go to my gym and/or I'm in that area of town for one reason or another! Including in Frisco for small group days! This is huge as I'm WAY better at motivating myself to go to a class than I am going at it alone. Some classes don't even require an ounce of motivation because I heart them, or the instructor.

Gym = covered.

Now food. Erg.

I have become way too lazy with the food arena. I pick things up at Whole Foods entirely too much which is not only unhealthy (their prepared section is not the healthiest), but also a waste of money! My problem is that I don't really enjoy cooking. Mostly because I don't enjoy eating the same thing for days, and it's kind of annoying that I have to shop, cook, clean, and eat for days on end. Oh the life of a single person. :)

But it's time to get over it. To accept that I don't have a personal chef (though that would be awfully nice!) and quit whining! Though the whining only happens in my head...but still!

So I decided to kick this healthy living thing back into high gear. To reestablish habits that have waned. I decided this on Saturday.

And then crazy week happened.

Darn you crazy! :)

Giving myself grace, but also not letting the crazy be an excuse. This is important to me and my health. Plus, life will always be crazy.

So, here's to kicking it into high gear and hopefully hitting goal weight by swimsuit season. Well, it's kind of almost that, so let's restructure. Here's to hopefully hitting goal weight by Memorial Day weekend!

Happy healthy living folks.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Being Me

Hi, I'm Sarah. And for many, many years, I haven't really been me. Maybe you're one who's seen the real me, or maybe you've just seen a glimpse now and then. I apologize for that. It's come out of a place of insecurity and from listening to ill advice back in college. Through the last few weeks of thinking about why I often feel "off", I've realized that real Sarah sometimes gets squished out for "Sarah that I think everyone wants." I'm working on changing that.

In the meantime, here are a few things about real Sarah that you may or may not know. Some are slightly goofy, but it's me so take it or leave it.

1. Deep down, I'm pretty goofy. Not necessarily funny in the sense that my brother is, but I love to let loose, be silly, and not worry about what others think. This is partially why I love zumba! Among other reasons...

2. I always, ALWAYS have a soundtrack playing in my head. It's sort of like my life is a movie and different parts have different songs. Oh and I seriously, legitimately wish life was a musical. Just once it'd be amazing to have everyone break-out into spontaneous song and dance.

3. I have a WILD imagination that probably would lead to some embarrassment if folks knew. Someday I hope to have the time/discipline to write down my antics. Maybe they could create an actual story as opposed to just entertaining me!

4. Along with imagination, I'm sort of still a kid at heart (probably partially why I love kids!). I hope that one day an owl will deliver an invitation for me to go to Hogwarts and maybe I'll catch a glimpse of a Care Bear on a cloud. I love the wonder, amazement, and magic of childhood dreams. And someday, McKenzie and I will go live on the top of the Eiffel Tower. :)

5. Lately, I've felt like I was living in the middle of a Mexican restaurant. It's due to my obsession with zumba music... Okay, I admit. I have a problem. :)

6. Along with zumba, I have a secret dream to be a dancer (well, it's not so secret considering it's been a dream since I was 4 and started dancing, but whatever). And I also have a deep love for music, whether it's in english or not.

7. Although I'm full of magical dreams and imagination, I also have a ridiculous obsession with correct grammar usage. Well, specifically a few incorrect uses: y'all, your vs. you're, I vs. me, and the incorrect use of adverbs. I blame my family as exhibited in my previous post. :)

8. I'm super, duper spontaneous. My mom always jokes that even as a kid, I was always ready to "go." Be it a simple trip around town or something larger. I love to be plan-free and just go where the wind blows me. Some of my spontaneous times have been the best times! This is partially why I miss the college pace of spontaneous compared to adulthood. :)

9. I absolutely, positively must have eight hours of sleep most nights or I turn into Mr Hyde (or is it Dr Jekel who was evil?). Nonetheless, I'm mean when I'm tired. It's really not intentional!

10. I think deeply AND feel deeply. Phew, sometimes it's exhausting. Oh and I'm an extrovert but not always out-going. Kind of a problem when you need people but aren't always great at reaching-out to people (mostly thinking they don't want to be around me)...working on it. :)

There you have it. Just a few things. Of course there are more as my life can't be summed-up in 10 items, but it's a start.

I've tried really hard to change myself the last few years, namely my personality. I always thought it was flawed since it's very different from many people. But, you know? It's how God made me. And if I'm really going to believe that he can't mess up, than I've got to believe he didn't mess me up. I know this "being me" thing will take time and trust, but I'm going to work on it. And am hopeful something beautiful will be fashioned from the swirly mess that sometimes swims around my head. Only He can do it.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:14

Sunday, March 18, 2012


Last weekend I had the pleasure of visiting my Mammy in Arkansas with my mom. It was the first time I'd been there since Granddaddy passed away, so in some ways it was strange, but it was also a sweet time.

I know I'll always miss Granddaddy. My Mema died almost 14 years ago and I still frequently have times where something will make me think of her or I'll see/smell something that reminds me over her and I wish she were here. I know the same will be with Granddaddy, but I'm thankful that, as with Mema, those times will also make me thankful for the opportunity to know and learn from them.

While at Mammy's, some of my favorite moments was discovering things about Granddaddy that I never knew! My whole life he had an office in their house that I wasn't allowed to go into. I honestly don't remember anyone ever telling me to stay out of it, but I guess it was always understood. I could walk into it and see his wall of pictures (he has a wall with Mammy at the top, then his five children, their spouses, and his grandchildren), but I never ever went behind his desk, into his secretary, or his closet.

Last weekend, we did. Even my mom said she felt like she was intruding as the same rule applied for her. However, it was as if we had discovered a treasure chest! I had no idea that Granddaddy kept journals since at least 1941. While looking for something (I don't even remember what we were searching for), my mom handed me a box that I opened. Insides were a slew of tiny journals filled with bits from Granddaddy's life.

I primarily focused on the ones from the 40s. It was so sweet to see Granddaddy as a young person and learn things I never knew. And to see him as "human." I know that probably sounds weird, but he's always been on a pedestal for me, so it was fun to learn that he wasn't the best driver in the 40s, that he had lots of crushes, and that he was excited about a raise one time to 65 cents per hour.

It was also so sweet to see when he met Mammy and clearly see how much he loved her then, and know his love for her grew more and more throughout his life.

I wish that my other family members could have been there as we read them, though I hope someone will bring the journals this summer to Granddaddy's celebration of life. I know they'd all relish them, and it would be sweet to read together.

I also looked at one from when Granddaddy took Adam and me on a white water rafting trip in Idaho. I loved it. It made me want to dig further to find ones from when we were alive, but I didn't this trip. Maybe another time.

Along with the journals, we found lots of old pictures and an awesome scrapbook of my great-grandmother's (Granddaddy's mom)! I snapped a few pictures with my phone.

Granddaddy is one of the smartest people I've ever known, so this remark in one of his report card's was priceless! And it reminded me of Adam. :)

Mammy and Granddaddy as young kids!! I think Mammy said this is right about when they were engaged.

Who knew Granddaddy was a jokester!?! This made me laugh...a lot.

This one's probably hard to read, but it's a letter Granddaddy wrote to his cousin as a 6th grader. At the bottom, his mom is critiquing his letter structure! She was a teacher. I think the obsession with grammar has been in my family for generations! :)

This is a letter from the 1850s written by a man to some lady I'm related to (can't remember who). It was hilarious because this guy liked the girl, but apologized for writing her without first asking permission. He then proceeded to bear his soul and say how much he loved her. It was so cool. And made me appreciate the art of writing letters.

The next few are from Honey's scrapbook (my great-grandmother). They are advertisements that she kept and they make me laugh, especially considering I work in advertising!

I can't imagine an ad today showing a child being beaten...

Um, kind of racist!

I think this one was for cold medicine. What the world?

This medicine cures everything. Maybe I need it. :) And no idea what the pig has to do with the price of tea in China.

This one just made me laugh. It's all of my cousins on the Buckley side, though we're all so little! I think I'm in 8th grade, Adam in 6th, Mat in 5th, Jon 4th, Bonnie's maybe 6?, Anna looks about 4, and Georgia maybe 2?

Lastly, this is a snapshot of a lap "quilt" I made Mammy. It represents the Proverbs 31 woman, who I believe Mammy represents as she's faithfully cared for Granddaddy and her family and loved the Lord. Thankful for her example and love her dearly.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Heart Attack...

So, the other day I was convinced I was having a heart attack. No joke. I haven't been feeling well, and then on Sunday at one point it felt like my throat was closing up and my chest was hurting. I later told my roommate, who said I don't really have any of the risk factors.

Then, I was convinced I had GERD. Um, yes, because of the internet... Oops.

Katie said she doubted I had that, either, as I didn't really have any of the symptoms.

Yesterday morning, the sensations returned along with a massive headache. I decided to quit self-diagnosing and went into see my favorite doctor.

Apparently I have such bad allergies right now that my throat is closing up and my chest probably hurts from the post nasal drip. The allergies have also created a sinus infection. Joy.

Now I have a gaggle of medicine to hopefully wipe it all out. And maybe this rain will wash it all away, too.

I just think it's funny that I thought I was having a heart attack and it's really tree pollen reeking havoc. Ha. Though it is scary to have your throat close up!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Noel or Ben?

So I recently discovered that the old WB show, Felicity, is on netflix. And I've quickly fallen back in love with the show and maybe sort of feel like I'm back in college watching on the little dorm television.

It's also apparent that I'm still a Ben person. Most of my college friends preferred Noel because he was the sweet, nice guy. For whatever reason, I preferred Ben and apparently still do.

I'm gonna need to wrangle my Felicity watching or it could end up being a ton of wasted hours... Good thing I have a busy schedule already. :)

So, are you Noel or Ben?