Thursday, April 28, 2011

Peely Skin Disease Mishap

Picking at dry skin from peely skin disease to the point of removing a layer of skin and bleeding makes typing at work painful.

But good thing I can still do this (though it's sideways):



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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Twin Niece?

As I said when Morgan was born, everyone says she looks like me. I still don't get how babies look like people, but my grandmother found a picture from when I was a week old:


Morgan
Moi (because I get to be French)


What do you think?

Monday, April 25, 2011

Prone to Wander...

I learned about this a few minutes ago, at just the right time. One of my favorite bands playing one of my favorite hymns.



Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love;
here's my heart, O take and seal it,
seal it for thy courts above.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Proud of My Brother

On Friday, my brother, Adam, took part in an event through his gym to honor Christ's death on the cross. It was a two and a half hour intense workout designed to connect them to what Jesus did for us through that horrendous day of physical torture and crucifixion. Obviously they were not beaten or hung on a cross, but he said the workout was emotional, spiritual, and physically challenging, though worth it as it drew them closer to the Lord and what Jesus sacrificed for us.

He sent me this video clip of another gym that did this same workout last year:



I'm proud of A for finishing and for being committed to honoring Christ, even through exercise.

Praise the Lord for what we remember today. Christ the Lord is risen today!

Happy Easter!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Celebration!

My goodness, God has been so good to me this week. Earlier I wrote about tough things happening and, since then I've hit two major milestones worth celebrating! For the first, I'll just say he's good and faithful. For the second...

Back in December I realized I was not feeling good about myself. My body hurt and ached and just was plain not good. I talked to my community and family and decided to restart weight watchers after Christmas. I did it years ago, but not with much success. I think part of it was because I was often eating to deal with other things I hadnt dealt with. Hence, celebrate recovery.

Well today I hit a big ww milestone...10%! I never hit that last time. I've now lost 20 pounds since Christmas! I still have a ways to go, but am thankful for this.

It's taken longer than I hoped, but I've learned a lot lately that God's timeline doesn't always match mine, but he most definitely teaches me a lot while I walk his. I've learned a lot these past few months about food, exercise, and how both can be used to honor the Lord!

Excited to keep walking this road. Would love to hit my goal weight by my 30th birthday, but okay if I don't.

Oh and ww is big on rewards with milestones. So today I'll finally use a gift card from Christmas to get some new TOMS that I've wanted. May seem like a strange reward, but I'd rather save for clothes... :)

Happy Saturday!


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Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Your Love is Like a Sea Without a Shore

Yesterday was a hard day and, sadly, I don't think it'll be confined to just that day. Something occurred that, while I won't go into the details, in and of itself hurt a lot. Yet what hurt more was the Pandora's box of realization of the unfulfilled dreams that I'm walking through. Many tears were shed and many questions were raised. But in all of it, I know without a shadow of a doubt that God is sovereign.

I have been in a wave of learning so much about God's character in these last few months. My hunger for Truth is insatiable and I crave deep time with him daily. I believe with every fabric of my being that the hard things and unfulfilled or shattered dreams brought forth this hunger and desperate grip on the Lord. And that grip has driven me to knowing his word, which has helped me to see today, in the midst of another frustrating circumstance, that he is worthy of praise and uses these circumstances to draw us closer to him.

As I mentioned in my small group retreat update, I heard the new Passion album this weekend. And, in God's most perfect timing, was listening to it fairly non-stop before I heard this news yesterday. Almost instantly, the lyrics to a new David Crowder song held a new meaning. It's called Sometimes. One line in the song says:

It’s Your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, We're lost in You

We laughed about that line over the weekend as David Crowder often talks about water in his music. We quickly dismissed the laughter when we thought about the magnitude of the ocean, it's depth and power, and the frequency with which water references appear in the Bible.

Now, though, I really get it. It doesn't make sense, but I genuinely feel lost in the Lord. The thoughts that cross my mind don't make any sense to me. And the fact that I am committed to seeking after an eternal prize that I don't understand or see instead of a tangible, though temporal, earthly prize is crazy.

Several times in this song (don't worry, I'll post the whole song below) Crowder says "don't be afraid". I can't help but think about when Jesus tells the disciples not to be afraid in the raging storm...for he is with them.

So today, while I know I'll still grieve these unfulfilled dreams and experience hurt, I know at my core that I stand on solid ground. And I serve a God who cares more about my holiness than my happiness. And that makes the hurt and broken dreams worth it.

I'm hoping to take next Friday off work as I have enough overtime hours in order to spend extended time with the Lord. I especially hope it works since Friday marks the anniversary of Jesus' death. What a timely day to reflect on what he's doing, yet cling to the hope that is to come.

Here's the song. I HIGHLY recommend this album. It really rocks and I could talk about all of the songs. :) I hope we start singing them at church soon.

Sometimes every one of us fears
Like we’ll never be healed
Sometimes
Sometimes every one of us aches
Like we’ll never be saved
Sometimes

When we’ve given up
Let your healing come
When theres nothing left
Let your healing come
Til were risin up
Let your healin come
Where You go we will follow
Where You go we will follow

It’s Your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, Were lost in You
It’s Your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, Were lost in You
Sometimes

Sometimes it’s like we never loved home
For all the love we know
Sometimes like in a smile of a song
When you feel it come
Then that feelings gone
It flies

When we’ve given up
Let your healing come
When theres nothing left
Let your healing come
Til were risin up
Let your healin come
Where You go we will follow
Where You go we will follow

It’s your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, Were lost in You
(3x)

Its your love we adore
Its like a sea without a shore
Don’t be afraid, Don’t be afraid

Just set your sail and risk the ocean
Show me grace
Let’s risk the ocean
Show me grace
Let’s risk the ocean
Show me grace
Let’s risk the ocean
Show me grace

Where you go we will follow
I’m on my knees
Where you go we will follow
Oh God send me
Where you go we will follow
I’m on my knees
Where you go we will follow
Oh God send me

It’s your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, Were lost in You
It’s your love that we adore
It’s like a sea without a shore
We’re lost in You, Were lost in You

Where you go we will follow

Where you go we will follow
I’m on my knees
Where you go we will follow
Oh God send me

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Lake Getaway

This weekend we had our very last small group retreat out at the lovely Cypress Creek lake. Our LAST one! How did that happen? And how do we only have four more small groups until Senior Celebration? And probably only five left since our girls are jet setting around the world this summer?!? How does that happen? Okay, I have to stop or I'll start to cry...

Our retreat was supposed to be back in February, but was post-poned due to the blizzard of Dallas. While a few girls were not able to come this weekend (or had to leave early to try out for Baylor Cheer!), it could not have been a better weekend. We spent most of the weekend outside enjoying the weather and enjoying one another. Phones barely worked, so there were minimal distractions. We had lots of laughs, lots of sunburns, lots of food (I managed to avoid the snacks, yay!), and lots of time revelling in the beauty and graciousness of the Lord.

Back six years ago when I started this ministry, I thought I'd be married with children by now. Obviously that hasn't happened, but I can truly say with every fabric of my being that, while I do mourn the unfulfillment of my dreams, I have increasing joy. God used this ministry to utterly wreck me for him. He has deepened my affections for him, established my dependance on his word and truth daily, expanded my vision for his Kingdom, and showed me knowing him for him is infinitely better than knowing him for blessings. THAT makes where he has me worth it. I'm grateful that he truly does use all things for my good. And my best is knowing him and being changed to be more like Christ. So thankful for how God used these darling girls to teach me more about his love for me, and all of his people.

Anyway, below are some pictures of the weekend. For some reason blogger is making them grainy and they're backwards in time...oh well. Also bummed I didn't get any with Morgan before she left!
Where'd Molly go?!?

Admiring the sunset

We sang praises to the Father to the tune of Molly playing guitar, the setting sun, the water, and a few bugs. :) Reminded me of our nights in Brazil. Emily attempting a perfect marshmallow Kate's perfect smore...she requested a picture for proof Melissa has the world's shortest skewer! Too funny
We did a lot of this
Lovely co-leaders
The cuties!
Kate learned Free Fallin' that afternoon and decided to serenade us...definitely the slowest version of the song, but funny
We did a lot of this, too
Graham came with us! Camille has baby fever
Making homemade pizza
Sunburned dearies
This picture makes me laugh...a lot.


I also managed to snag a quick video of singing praises. We did a lot of this: on the car ride there and back (to the Passion 2011 album...it ROCKS) and at multiple points throughout the weekend. Praising the Lord with these girls is one of my favorites.



video


And that's it. Thankfully we made it through the weekend with minimal tears. And, even though we only have a few small groups left, I'm so thankful to go to Haiti with five of our precious girls. Again, if you had told me I'd be going to Haiti with a bunch of high schoolers right before my 30th birthday, I would have told you you're nuts. But I am. And I'm so blessed to get to. And my joy abounds.


Let the Lord be glorified, that we may see your joy. Isaiah 66:5

Friday, April 8, 2011

Ma Niece La Princesse Morgan

Morgan Elisabeth arrived late last night! I was already deep in slumber land when my brother called with the news, but thankfully I was sleeping on my bad ear so heard my phone ring. She is 7lbs, 14oz and 21 inches long which, frankly, doesn't mean much to me. But I know people like stats. :) The above picture reminds me of one my parents have of my brother as a baby. Though apparently everyone says she looks like me. I don't really see it, but I think they're comparing to ma bebe photo and I don't remember what I looked like! I also was surprised by my emotional response when I learned she was here. I knew I'd be so excited, but I didn't expect to be wrecked so quickly for a baby. I like babies okay, but have always been more of a bigger kid person, when they start talking and interacting. However, when I saw her sweet face (even though it was just a picture), this feeling of intense, immediate love overwhelmed me. I spent a good portion of this morning praying over her and McKenzie, asking the Lord to save them. I know this will be a consistent prayer. And then, I know this probably sounds strange, given she's only 14 hours old, but today I've been giddy excited to one day bring McKenzie and Morgan to Paris!! McKenzie looooooves all things French just like me (maybe because of me?) and I plan to get Morgan equally excited about my favorite place I've never been. Someday I hope we have the opportunity to walk along the Champs Elysees, gaze upon Paris from the top of the Eiffel Tower, manger les patisseries, and just enjoy the city! I fully plan to be fun Aunt Sarah to Morgan as I hope I am to McKenzie. Anyway, so thankful for this life, and prayerful God uses Morgan to glorify his name in magnificent ways. And I can't wait to meet her in May...it can't get here soon enough! Below are a few pictures thus far. I'm sure there will be many, many more. :)




Friday, April 1, 2011

Arg!!!!

If you got to 1:38-ish, you'll see what I have been tempted to do all day. So.glad.it's.Friday. Loooong week. Oh and the video is pretty hilarious, though it may not be to non-student ministry folks since it does relate to their personalities. :)